Current mood:

hopeful

Today, techically yesterday now was a year since my sister died.
**sigh** Hard to imagine it has been a year all ready. I miss my sister so much. The day wasn't as bad as I thought it would be since a bunch of her friends came over and hung out with us. We had food and soda and it was kind of a mini-party. Emily would have approved. I had a dream about the night she died last night. She was leaving the house like she did that night and the only difference was I got to hug her goodbye. I sobbed when I woke up after the dream. That is my one regret about that night, besides the fact she died at all obviously, is that I never said good-bye, I love you or even hugged her. I am glad I dreamed about her though, that's all I wanted.

I also had a dream I got 2 kitties and that made me very happy. I am desperatly seeking a full time job and have resumes out all over. I have applied at my credit union, 2 insurance agencies and Elmira College where my dad works. That job would be great because it would let me go to school there for free. Psychology degree here I come! I am going to pray like crazy I get something full-time soon. Everybody cross your fingers for me! Time for shower and bed work tomorrow then maybe riding with JoEllen if it isn't too cold.